“Nothing good is happening in my life.”

This was the recurring thought I faced every morning and night. The days felt monotonous, and even food lost its flavor.

Achieved excellent grades, got into a prestigious university, and secured an ideal job. “Is this all there is to life?”

In my younger days, life felt vibrant. A 60% on a biology test didn’t bother me—I could always do better next time. Losing a few friends wasn’t a big deal—I could always make new ones. I studied, played, and read books.

But now, in my 20s, those once insignificant things have become overwhelming burdens. Life started to feel like a never-ending maze with no escape.

Wake up, work, return home, sleep.

You repeat this cycle and wonder—”Is this it?”

Reaching a state where nothing seems to matter, I found something that offered a fresh perspective.

Absurdism. This philosophy is straightforward. Life is absurd.

You’re born into a world with pre-established rules. Whenever you try to explore, there are people ready to hold you back before you can even start. You work, eat, do everything, but forget to ask yourself one vital question—are you happy?

Absurdism is a philosophy that examines the clash between our search for meaning and the chaotic, uncaring universe.

Life is irrational and often lacks true purpose. We think life is tragic because it’s harsh, and we constantly blame others, leading to bitterness.

Absurdism doesn’t try to define the meaning of life; instead, it suggests that life inherently lacks meaning.

Wait, So What Makes This a Philosophy?
When you’re pressured to find life’s meaning, you search desperately. You look for it in hobbies, in mundane jobs, sometimes in other people. When you can’t find it, you experience those negative feelings of emptiness.

But what if you don’t need to find meaning? What if the journey is more important than the lessons it teaches?

At its heart, absurdism acknowledges human life’s contradictions and irrationalities. It accepts that life is intrinsically meaningless and without inherent value. We aren’t born with a predefined purpose—life becomes enjoyable when we create our own meaning.

Instead of falling into nihilism or despair, absurdism encourages us to confront life’s absurdity and find meaning amidst the chaos.

Bad things happen more often than I realized; I then realized that I experienced it early in journey. It’s not the last thing in the world; in a month or two, I’ll find an even better one. When I started responding to negative thoughts with “so what,” life began to make sense again.

So what if I’m earning less now?
So what if I don’t have my own business yet?
If not now, then later. If life’s purpose is to create a purpose, I’ll build mine soon.